uh...yea...i'm writing a post again...2nd one this year...hehe...wadever...erm... to start off...today ...ok la i guess...did almost all the hmwk dued today....miraculously....ummm...actually...today got a class gathering at east coast... i guess...i was expected to be there ba... but...i didnt go in the end... i was too tired to go...fridays...end at 6pm...but i dunno why today reallly damn sian...so...i didnt go the gather...neither did i go church...heh...wad a bummer i am huh? sucks as a christian...sucks as a friend... then...i dunno larhs...cant control my emotions well... wonder why... sometimes...i wish i was born differently...or maybe...born perfect...heh...impossible... so dumb....but oh wells...i'm stuck with the current me...dunno how my future will be like...gotta wait and see... i'm gone...
sigh...i dunno how i feel anymore...she's the type i like.... if only...she was a christian...but then...even if she was...i guess...i would still get rejected...i can tell...i'm always trying to commune with her...and she doesn't seem to care....i guess she has high standards...i 'm not even close...oh well...i'm happy i met her...but i dun think our friendship will last....i want so much to tell her that if she somehow became a chritian...i would want to jio her...but i'm afraid of many things...she might not have the same feelings or she could end up avoiding me.....so i guess...it'll be shut in my heart until...i'm certain...the time that i shd tell her...